For those of you who’d like an update on the progress of topic of the last post, here it is.

Heard back from MOS. It’s a friends thing. It was transmitted very congenially and politely (if days after the fact), with complete interest expressed in still doing things together should I be interested.

I still think I haven’t completely lost my radar; I’m pretty certain a number of signs of attraction were there. But maybe I’m just more than he can handle conceptually, what with all the differences. Or maybe I was totally off. Who knows. Probably doesn’t matter.

Now, on to working to keep myself from believing (as I have normally done) that this response has global-scale implications about my overall desirability/worth to everyone else in the entire world…

I think I can do that. But really, sometimes I wish my mind would cut me a break and just gift me the confidence to instantly see these things as inconsequential gnat-size incidents, instead of always tending toward trying to to build it up into a maelstrom. It would be nice to not have to work so hard to keep things under control and in perspective.

Also–he’s still inviting me to go along with him on Saturday if I want. But as a positive action, when I didn’t hear from him until (now) two and a half days before said event, I went and planned something else to do on that day with someone else instead. So I at least managed to do that instead of keeping everything else open in order to wait for his response. I think it’s a bad idea to revolve my plans around vague hints offered by someone who can’t commit to a plan, or thinks I have no life and can just wait around for their whim. Been there, done that. Not anymore. I’m not gonna wait around for anyone who’s being ambivalent about wanting to spend time with me, whether friend or date.